10 Murmurings of the Spirit within - Christopher Mendonca

posted Mar 8, 2018, 11:11 AM by Neil D'Souza   [ updated Mar 8, 2018, 11:11 AM ]

The experience of Nicodemus (a first-person account):

Though I was a teacher of the Law, a Pharisee,

I was brought up not to ignore

the Prophets' and the Wisdom writings,

so necessary to understand the Torah.

The description of the Law in Psalm 119

was something I was well aware of.

It frequently contrasted pride with obedience to the Law.

But in particular, in the spirit of Psalm 1,

I often 'meditated' on the Law, day and night.

In our tradition, it meant "murmuring",

the silent interior recitation of its phrases in an undertone.

It was my daily antidote to pride and presumption,

faults that could well evade one's consciousness.1

For quite some time, I had begun to feel distant from my colleagues.

inwardly restless, and wrestling with pain.